Saturday, April 12, 2008

I need to be surrounded by happy people, those who don't give a damn about emotions and stuff like that. I've been too emotional the past few weeks, intentionally or not. I read somewhere that stress might be causing it, and I would agree.

I don't have time to spend at home anymore. My mom and dad are sweet enough to wake up each time I get home around past midnight, but the only conversations we get to have are these:

Morning
Mom: Ingat ka, anak. What time are you coming home?
Me: Ganun pa rin po. Bye.

Evening
Dad: Bakit late ka na naman umuwi? What time are you waking up?
Me: Ganun pa rin po. Goodnight.

Weekend - Saturday
Dad: Aalis ka ngayon?
Me: Yes po.
Dad: San ka pupunta?
Me: Office po.
Mom: O, mag-ingat ka. Anong oras ka uuwi? Uwi ka ng maaga.

Weekend - Sunday
Mom: O, nakatulog ka ba sa office?
Me: Opo, nun mga 3 am na. Nagising ako ng 6.
Mom: Anong sinakyan mo?
Me: MRT. Ma, tulog muna ako.
Mom: O cge, anong oras kita gigisingin?
Me: Kahit lunch time na lang po.

It's a good thing I don't really have time to think. If I did, unkind thoughts would have already entered my head. I want to take a break. I want to breathe. I want to do things for myself. I want to have more conversations with the important people in my life.

This week, I'll leave the office at 5.30 pm. I'm breaking myself from the chains.