Friday, December 17, 2004

Emotionless Love

Every girl dreams of having a significant other...be it the charming prince who'd sweep a damsel in distress off her feet or the poor boy who'd win the princess' love with his big heart... In the stillness of the night, we look up at the stars and wish on the brightest one, hoping against hope that the person we greet the new day with would be the ‘one’.


Searching and waiting…such a tedious performance; longing and hurting…in painfully keeping all the love inside that's waiting to overflow for the supposedly worthy one. It’s considered a miracle when you find someone who would truly love and accept you for who you are, despite the adversities and romance’s ill-fate in this time and age.


So, people ask, why let go of love when it was wrapping its wide arms around me, comforting and sheltering me?


I never make any reply...
Nobody would seem to understand why.


Every time I sit alone in my room, I ponder at the two faces behind love: the face of letting go and the other, that of holding on.


After all the sleepless nights, I gave up…because, you see, the only conclusion I had was this: there are no absolute answers to all the questions revolving around love. It has its shallow depth yet sometimes, a deepness that not everyone could seem to comprehend. At times, it is wrapped in gold strings and warm silky packaging, though there would be instances when it is bounded by prickly stems.


And that's just the way love is. For some mysterious reason, that I don't think anybody could ever explain, love brings two sides of the coin together, that of joy and sorrow. Although we have been told that every relationship is in our hands and that we have the capacity to either make or break it, love is an independent entity that we could never really grasp. Relationships we can handle...but love can only be dealt with by the soul.


So where does all these realizations bring me?
Just this: Love is innate. We could never be numb to the emotion...Though, we have the free will not to express it.