Love is a Gamble

Love is a gamble...and there are no flashes nor straights that could mend your heart when it breaks.

Do I Stoop Down so Low?

I dare not.

"Do I stoop down so low?"

These were the words I blurted out after hearing his insane accusation. At first, the ridiculous idea offended me, but eventually I found the sarcastic humor to laugh it off. Then at the end of our conversation, the once forgotten hurt resurfaced. This time, though, it wasn't caused by a broken heart. Instead, the pain of insult returned to haunt me.

It never occurred to me that he would think I would do such a thing: to express words of vulgarity to his present girlfriend. Through all those times when his words pierced me, I never uttered a single word of profanity although blood already rushed through my veins. Why would I do such an immature deed now that I've opened my eyes to the truth and have set myself free? I even sympathize with his girl for having to undergo this situation. I wouldn't wanna be in her shoes to begin with.

This unmistakable judge of character is a disappointment. After all this time, nothing changed as to how he saw me. Through everything we've been through, I am still valued so low by the one I chose to shower my affection to in just the recent past.

It's actually a pity, although this time, I do not pity myself. This incident only strengthened my conviction to stay away, as much as it supported my decision to move on with my life without him.

Modesty aside, but I deserve so much more.