Sh*t

I'm losing myself again...it's eating me up inside.

I have no more social life, try as I may to think that I do. Even when I rarely go out to be with friends or family, it always helped to take my mind off things that drain me. Now, it's such a sad, sad reality to accept that I can't find the time to be happy...and stay happy...happiness seems to belong with uncertainty, only fleeting and temporary.

I missed my bestfriend's graduation dinner all because I was sucked into this world of responsibility and disillusion. I think I'm becoming the person that I hoped I wouldn't be, one who'd let her world be taken over by tasks and obligations that only bound me to nothingness...I am starting to take for granted things that should matter...

How pathetic can this life get?

Seriously, I am taking a break from blogging...from exposing myself too much. This is becoming such a bad, hard habit to break...